I don’t even know how I got here. At first it was just for fun, a few euros here and there, and now I can’t stop. I’ve lost, I don’t even know how much this month. I lied to my girlfriend, I lied to my mother. I’m supposed to pay my rent next week.
I tell myself every time that I’m going to make it back and obviously it never works, it just gets worse. I wake up at night and replay the games in my head where I could have won.
I don’t know why I’m writing this here. I think I just couldn’t keep it to myself anymore.